Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 06, 2022

Daughter of Zion-Two Thousand Twenties

 Will I sit back and laugh when the world burns?

tired of sadly shaking my head

   hide my face from the heat

    singe the hairs of my hands?

or turning and walking away?

run

tired of the heat

   petty games of blame

   finger pointing

am I carrying the buckets all alone?

 one spot of green left

wet my plants

  wet my pants

Sitting on the curb, 

ash falls around


I long for the cold shower

the fuller's soap

To stand clean from the filth of this time

filth of the times that have brought us to this


too many have sold themselves

turned  natural beauty into plastic

earth and soul


to be redeemed 

 a power

 I, alone, do not possess



Monday, August 29, 2022

Soul

stardust that formed the earth

elements recycled many times

into me they formed

flesh, bacteria, a colony of one

yet in and through everything in ages past

part of everything now


I breathe plant exhaust

they breathe mine


elemental as I am, 

flesh

     and bone 

              and blood


My spirit soars

for it of the skies

boundless and eternal


Monday, July 18, 2022

A god in Your own Mind


A god in your own mind

idol worship supreme


How sad it must be

to imagine you understand all


 How many mothers must die?

How many women tied to poverty?

Your limiting laws show only your limited life

limited experiences

and your arrogance


cut down your groves

stop passing our youth through the fire


clean your temple

renew your covenants

but oh no, you'd rent your clothes

and they're so shiny

your knees - stiff -

and you need to visit your chiropractor


Change

 Change

never a thing harder to accept

or do

If we want to change 

it challenges us, old habits hold us down, strangles our desire to rise

suffocates us from the inside

Of we don't want, life drags us kicking and screaming, until something breaks

our sanity or our hearts

Friday, April 15, 2022

I'm trying

 We carry with us the garbage  of the history of our cultures

intellectually, spiritually,

 we know better

but it is hard to shake the 40 years of residue from swimming it and breathing it


must scrub it off

reframe our thinking

over and over

each time we see more of ourself

shining through


It took 300 years for Enoch to build Zion

300 years of scrubbing, reframing, reteaching, retraining

incremental improvements, on a grand scale

a whole city


imagine how it changed 

as people got a little better each day

walkable streets? 

no litter

flowers and fruits and gardens

neighbors helping each other


imagine these small little changes

GO and do likewise

Thursday, July 23, 2020

I Arise

like a pregnant woman
round and yet hard - an on coming train
the belly has to move first
hips wiggling it to the front of the chair
the stabilizing the feet beneath
before the lift

wobbly, perhaps off balance

but

I arise

like a baby deer
so new from its mother
blinking in the new light
speckled in the morning

before I run

I arise

Tuesday, December 03, 2019

The real work begins

playing with my kids
rolling on the floor
giggles and squeals
abound with galore

fairies and dragons
make their roosts upon me
I am the luckiest of places you see

For I am the Mom
home from her job

when I leave
the kids cling and they sob

fairy castles aren't meant to be out of sight
even dragons need a safe cave to make things alright

and they build their hoard in my pockets you see
toy cars, and mittens, crayons, and used hankie
which they then pull out with great glee
all over the floor

and we giggle and squeal and roll as before





Thursday, November 14, 2019

Love Winter's Coziness

the need to feel another's heat
                         another's touch
to know
          smiling faces are waiting
at the end of this long, dark, cold road
   A reason to Push Through
                       Keep Slogging

stars overhead - bright
                         known configurations

Why should I fight, when I could enjoy?

trees silhouette against the moon
bare birch limbs
                        glow in its light

What a Night!

to be
                   almost Home

Sunday, November 10, 2019

November Haiku

gossamer wings tied to the piano
winter boots, miss-matched gloves
night starts before dinner

Friday, October 25, 2019

Grandpa's Lap

I go back to my grandfather's lap
place of security, serenity
warmth
vibrating with assonance
vowels
sounds
the alliteration of consonants
hitting his lips
his beard bouncing
tickling my neck

this is where my writing begins
every time when I find that authentic voice
buried deep inside daily concerns
constantly interrupted with the needs of the many
outside of pancakes and diaper changes
outside of due dates and tests

inside that carves space-
hearing his heartbeat
through his sweater
connected with poetry
that space is my well

I go back to my grandfather's lap
to find my voice

Saturday, September 21, 2019

we wait

We are staying up late,
waiting for that cool of the night to make it possible for us to sleep
But it doesn't come
It is September
and the cool doesn't come

air thick
humid
a blanket smothering our desire to act

we want to breathe
to move
to hear the birds and crickets chirp

but it doesn't come

we wait

will next week reach the promised lows?

or do I pull out my summer clothes once more

Monday, August 12, 2019

When I am a Grandma

When I am a grandma

I will set out cut glass candy dishes
filled with black licorice
and red hot cinnamon gummy bears
when my grandson asks
if he should put it in the fridge
I'll say "Of course dear,
that's what you do with hot things."

I will make sure I have gum in my purse
so all my grandkids can have a piece
when they get it stuck to their hands
I'll tell them to use a paper napkin to get it off
and laugh at the ensuing hilarity

I will dress differently from everyone else they know
I will show up at school events in houses dresses
with an apron on- bringing fresh-baked goodies

I will give the best hugs
and the best Christmas gifts

because I will the present

Wednesday, July 31, 2019

Great Pomp

With great pomp
High on their horses of sin
Arrayed in splendors
Of the world- they enter in

Eyes that squint
Ears full of their own wisdom
cannot see hands reaching out
cannot hear the pleas of the kids
     they've locked away
Their hearts beat for money
doesn't break for the ache
     their policies cause

No tears to waste
Not worth the gold

Wednesday, July 03, 2019

Everyday Joy

Every day there is joy
Sitting on my lap
Snuggling into my breasts
Asking for pushes on swings
Giggles
Alphabets
Car keys
Gas money
College tuition
Holding the hand of Superman
Walking to grandma’s
Playing games together
Sitting side by side
Each absorbed in our own devices
just to be near
To be with family

Is a joy

Saturday, June 29, 2019

Mommies are not synonymous with trampolines

and other things you say to naked three-year-olds right out of the bath

I think: they call him the streak... fastest thing on two feet
then wonder why kids are so slippery when wet

Batman wants to wear his sister's pink winter boots on a 90-degree summer's day

Who would have guessed so much of motherhood would be spent trying to explain that?
winter clothes for winter, cold, snow
summer clothes for hot weather, sweating, swealtering days
the twain shall not cross

and of course
 mommies are not designed to be jumped on
chewed on
 bitten
   hitten
colored on
or ignored

Ovulation

I want to be banged like a Salvation Army Drum

by a volunteer
an amateur
one who does it for love

hard, steady
day after day
especially on special occasions

deep
     long
         resonate

making beautiful music

until my timber shakes
my frame quakes

membranes moan
and cry

I'm about to die
         AHhhhhhhhhhH

Friday, June 28, 2019

Pollinator Heaven

tall, with crowns of gold and white
wildflowers are a breathtaking delight

dew as jewels upon the blades
glisten in this quiet glade

grass in the back went to seeding
son said "Mom, it looks like Eden"

butterflies dance along the row
now I'm glad we didn't mow

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Grandma's House

I walked the steps
the deck
overlooking the lake
memories
came in waves
large, small
seeing through the glass doors
white brick fireplace
bookshelves
previously carefully curated
half my life
 my grandparents lived there
now
sold to new owners

Friday, May 17, 2019

Old White Men




Old White Men

Old white men
With degrees Daddy bought them
Pretending they know something
Distrust all decisions
They never made themselves

They shun the poor
Because they don’t understand
They shun the “colored”
Because they don’t understand
They try to control women
In this land

Their aim
Make money
Stay in power
They don’t understand
Those things don’t matter

that
We are all children of the same God.


Older White Men

Their wives beside them
Called of God
Serve in His name
By His word

In the middle of the night
Awake receive and write
Revelation
Having trained themselves
From when they were young
To listen

A life of service
Navy suits
White suits
Ministering
One by one
Rich, poor, men, women, children
All colors under the Son
For they understand
We are all children of the same God.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

Memorable events in my Life

learning to tie my shoes in kindergarten
kindergarten circus, paper plate dumbbells, and tumbling clowns
stretching in ballet class, walking little fingers down to your toes
claiming to be the special needs kid in preschool so I could sit in the special chair
Mrs. Jendero reading "I'm being eaten by a boa constrictor" out loud
giggles of the kids at the rhyme of "oh heck, it's up to my neck"
bringing my own snack for milk break- a peanut butter sandwich and hot cinnamon candies
trying out the push pews in our new church building
twirling around and around in my full skirted dress at my baptism
the only kid in the primary choir
after dance class, waiting for a friend's dad to pick us up, we would play in a storage room- giggling to pop, and stories and making Phyllis Dillers out of the Christmas ornaments
Piano lessons- my teacher would hold a sharpened pencil under my palms
making mud pies, in broken dishes my neighbors threw out
my sister losing her glasses in the snowbank- we found them next spring
the bike my parents said was my size- I swear it reached to the sky
story time with Dad
my mother, dressed as a witch- making witches brew for our Brownie troop- she had disgusting names for everyday stuff like canned peaches
twirling around with my head on the cafeteria floor, just for fun
mom said my hair looked shiny
standing in lunch lines
always wondering what teachers did in their lounge
the school got new machines, that would sell 2 pencils for 25 cents
Mom made sure I had a quarter, even though I didn't need another pencil
drawing an oak tree in the fall, winning center placement on the bulletin board with it
loving the first teacher who actually took me seriously
waking up to a new birthday outfit laid out to wear to school
hiding one year because I didn't see it, until Mom pointed it out
it was second hand- I was disappointed
Grandma Hunt making noodles for the soup she made for my sick mother
Grandma Ruth making dozens of Christmas cookies, many varieties, all in one day, spread across our kitchen table
Grandma Ione always having gum in her purse when she came to visit
Grandma Bree- always with beads and a hat, skinny and wrinkled with a twinkle in her eye
I got gum stuck to  my fingers, Grandma Bree advised that I used a napkin to get it off, All the adults laughed at me as the napkin begin to stick all over my fingers
Grandpa reading poetry to us
Butter and margarine puns at the Thanksgiving table. I had a whale of a time sculpting it, then would it be butter if I worked longer on it, or was it only marginal?
My aunt knitting, darning a sock. I peppered her with questions about what she was doing.
Ripping the broken tiles off the bathtub wall, so they finally redid the whole room
My life slowly separating from my sister's
Grandma Ruth- proudly showing my the rags she made for my baby. I didn't get it. I do myself now.
Dying of sinus infection, but flying in spirit
Moving to Pequot- nothing worked in the new house
First day in Utah- 90 degree, walking alone along the city streets, independent and free
Autumn Meller- her name still brings a smile to my face-some people are just instant friends
Crisp Cold Winter in Nauvoo
When I was told on for bringing a book to a play- only a fifth grader would be so petty to feel a need to tell the teacher you had a book in your pocket and might not actually watch the play, apparently, no one thought about reading on the bus ride
Blowing bubbles in my Sister's hair, everything stuck in her curls
looking in the mirror after Egon was born, the worn out, wrinkled face, with dark circles and drawn expression- life seemed only to exist in the eyes, suggested to me what I always imagined a hag to be
camping under the expense of the desert sky
scenes of eternity opened to me